This past week has been SUPER rough. We've figured out what kind of cancer my mom has; it's in her nerves. This kind of cancer is newly discovered, and that's the reason it took so long for us to get a diagnosis. But, fewer people, including doctors, are acting like she's not dying, so it's kind of good news. When I heard the diagnosis, I felt a weight lifted off of me. My entire family was worried that it was going to be one of the really big baddies, but it's not. She is in a hospital about an hour from me, and they will be starting chemo this week I believe.
As for me, my mental health has been a complete shitshow. Things had been starting to go downhill before all this happened, but this hasn't really helped my case either. My family and I are discussing me being impatient, as in a mental hospital. Although, hospitals are usually the last resort for mental health. I'm looking for a place where I can just do what I normally, away from my family for a bit, but can get help and receive good treatment at all times. I don't know if such a place exists, and honestly, if it does, it might be too expensive. But I do know that staying at home is off the table for me, at the moment. I need a breather, with real help and real support. I need to do this so I can get better to be there for my family. I'm not happy about leaving them, but they all understand the situation.
Nothing has been decided yet; just thought I should let you all know. Thanks, love you all.
this is where i ramble; have fun