Hi, hello. Um, it's a bit weird to be writing here now. I've been MIA on here for while, except for this HUGE THEME UPDATE. I just wanted my website to match the theme of the rest of my social media. Essentially, I've been doing a lot of work. Whether it's school, writing, drawing, and selling things; I've been busy. I actually don't mind being busy, as it helps from being too depressed or manic. But, I've been feeling a little overwhelmed recently. I don't know if it's that the school year is ending in a few months, then there's summer holidays, and I'm also setting the store up, selling work, doing commission, but it's a few of those things.
Most times of the day, I'm either sleeping, writing, drawing, thinking of video ideas, or just being a viewer to other creators. It seems like my life it's pretty chill, and it is, and that's what is bugging me. I don't like getting content, because if I get content with my work and life, I get depressed and rely on my contentment, and then when things change it feels like I'm going insane.
So I'm trying to get things moving. I'm trying something new: commissions. Although, nobody has hired me as of now, I would still like to do them. I've also set up a Depop store so I can sell some of my clothing and other things online; almost like a home run second hand store. I've recently made speedpaints on my channel, which is new for me. But all of this feels like I'm reaching for thin air. I don't see an end goal, and it's making me spiral.
I'm trying to collect myself, get back to work, put on my grown-up pants, and get shit down. But for now, I have two days to finish writing this story for a contest, so that's what I'm doing.
Thanks for reading,
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