I get no comments on my posts, or comments on most of my social media; but I honestly don't care. I just want myself out there. And that's the reason I started up this blog again after two years, and re-worked it, but kept the old information. I liked having my blog, it made me feel like I was helping people. But now I do this because I need to. I need to make it known that this is how I feel, so then, like I do now, I can look back on what I thought and what I said, so that I can maybe learn from my past self. I want to see how I can change and how I have change. That's why doing this is so important to me, that's why I like the traffic I get from this; but please, if you have a thought, please comment. I love interacting with different opinions. Just know that this is a SAFE place and I don't want any harsh negativity. I hope that I can help people by helping myself and that's what this is for. Thank you.
I want to do everything all the time. I just need to do something every single second of every day. I don't know why I feel this way, but it is hard to do nothing.
Tell me why I feel like this.
I will be fully engaged in a conversation, task, or activity and my will just randomly shut off for a few seconds. What basically is I zone out so much that I not in physical reality and I'm just inside my head. I can't hear anything and it's like I have vision of the real world but I have tunnel vision inside my thoughts. Sometimes I'm just blank but other times I just daydream. I think this might be dissociation or my brain is being over worked and needs a break. I don't know, but some days I'll just feel like I'm not actually fully in reality. I just feel off.
Depersonalisation disorder is characterised by feeling detached from one’s life, thoughts and feelings. People with this type of disorder say they feel distant and emotionally unconnected to themselves, as if they are watching a character in a boring movie. Other typical symptoms include problems with concentration and memory. The person may report feeling ‘spacey’ or out of control. Time may slow down. They may perceive their body to be a different shape or size than usual; in severe cases, they cannot recognise themselves in a mirror.
For the past several months I've been in a very deep depression, which has affected my creativity majorly. I don't feel motivated to create the things I like, my writing and painting feels like this boring job that I don't want to be at. I love being creative, I love what I do, but lately I've felt lost. Lost with my mind, my creativity, and my path. If you guys have any advice, please let me know, I want to do more of what I know I love. Thanks.
I love writing, but I also love to paint. Both are big passions of mine, but writing is the field that I want to be in the most. I like to write for people, but I create art for myself. There is just something freeing about being able to smear paint, splatter it, and realize that is beautiful. Just one brushstroke can change an entire piece. So I suggest for writers to take up fun artsy hobbies that they just enjoy for pure entertainment. For nobody else but themselves.
Art is created to inspire; it's simple. But what do you create? Who do you want to inspire? I want to make people feel welcome and home in their mind, body, and soul. I want people to be okay; I did this by showing them that people are different on the inside than they are in the real world. Art helps me express things words can't. Painting, splashing, scratching. These are physical, actually visual to the brain. You don't have to have talent, just pick up a pen and scribble.
The simplest answer is that I understand the emotions of it. People who I know, close people, have pasted and writing about it helps me cope. It's a scary thing and turning it into a fictional scene helps me rationalize my thoughts. Nobody knows what happens after death, but seeing it, experiencing it, is something nobody wants to know; but we all do. It is the most relatable thing to happen to a person. It's good to show the emotions to help people and make them feel not lost in their own heads. I want to write about it to make people better; to be a fictional therapist, I guess.
There are times when staring at a blank wall is more entertaining than actually living. There are times when we are so empty that even doing the simplest task isn't worth it. There are times when those pills on your dresser look more delicious than a grand bowl of pasta. There are times you get so tired but you do not deserve to sleep. There are times when nothing matters. There are times when life is so meaningless and unsatisfying. You try new things, spend all your money, stupidly cut your hair, but none of it matters. You are significant. Yet, there is that small moment, when you look at the green leaves on spindly tress and view the vibrant petals of a rose, that life becomes home again. You were created to be whole, you are meaningless, yes, but you are not empty. You are a miracle of science and love. You are in the eyes of the universe, perfect. And does anything else really matter?
There are things you can never hide; and being able to create worlds in the blink of an eye is one of those things. Let your mind wander to those happy places, to those dark places, to those places that you can't remember. Being a creator is something to not take for granted; gods don't ignore their worlds and neither should you. Be the god of your own universe and listen to the worlds. Let them live through your silver tongue. Let them live inside you. And then, you will be truly happy.
Every single word; what does that mean? It means that no matter how you write or when you write it or who reads it; each word interpreted differently. Reactions, dialogue... You are your own God and the words you write, the world you create, are the humans who worship you. Let the readers worship you by understanding the words you write. And if you don't, you let the words decide for themselves. Word can mean many things, as can your thoughts. Let the words mean whatever. Let the words be words.
Listen, do you hear that? It's how much music influences writing. Listen, can you hear that. Your mind spins as your favourite band plays in the background softly. It's very late, or very early, and you can't sleep. You let the thrashing music lift you up and let the words spill out. You are a writer an music is your fuel.
Just let me say this, this email is not for me to boast, this is something that I've decided to do for all of my English teachers throughout high school. I don't want there to be any confusion when I disagree in class with structure and outlining pieces. I don't outline, and here's why: it doesn't help me, my brain works too fast to just have little ideas. When I have an idea, I take it and work to make it longer. Outlining also makes it more difficult for me to write something good, I've tried and by the time I'm writing my ideas have changed a million times and it ends up a piece of crap.
You may be thinking, "what experience do they have?", well, I've been published as of now in 11 anthologies from contests, came in the top three in the country in another contest, and in the span of 6-ish years have written over 100 poems, 70 short stories, and 1 (almost 2) novels. I also wrote an essay on my free time about how creative people can be the most sensitive people. As I've said, this is just to inform you and let you know the skills I have and that sometimes I may argue about plot. For example, last week we learned about how most characters in short stories are very flat, but I try not to do that. Since the majority of my stories are written in the first person, I end up writing a lot of detail and by the end of the story, the characters have at least faced something. My range of words have gone from 3 sentences to over 5000 words.
I am hopeful that this doesn't come off as egotistical, I just want you to know that I know how to write well and that I intend to use my skills at the best of my abilities. Also, be warned, I'm a really angsty teen, and most of my stories are dark and filled with death.
You know what I like when I'm reading a book? When I can tell that the story is personal and dear to the author. I try to do this with all of my writings as well. It helps me develop the story. Try to pinpoint the emotion in the story you are trying to convey, and think of when you felt like that. Put that into your work.
The title of this blog is 'Cheat Sheets on Writing the Perfect Book', I know; but I write poetry too. I've actually been writing poetry longer than stories. Shall I give you advice on poetry now? Sure, why not? But one problem: I can't. There is no right or wrong way to created a poem. Sure there are different types of poems, but those are guidelines for beginners that want to just pass English in school so they can get to Gym. Nobody likes Gym, well at least I don't. But I like English, and sitting through lectures about stuff I already know how to do is boring. So don't use guidelines, don't use rules; that's what poetry is about. If you have writers block, write a poem about how angry and frustrated you are with writers block.
I love it when people write from the heart, and make it gritty. Don't be so picky. Don't even listen to me! I'm just a writer who sits on her computer watching kitten livestreams more than actually writing. Go, make trouble, write the best poem you can.
I am hopeful that you understand that Mulan reference, and if not, get of my website and go watch Mulan. Alright, now for the actual advice part of this post. One things I needed to learn when I first started writing was when to detail and when to not detail. When I was a little writer (littler than I am now, actually) I didn't detail, and then I detail too much. Right now I know that when a scene has a lot of emotion, movement, or beauty in it, you need to add as much detail as possible.
When a scene is a little slow and just for plot, you really just need to plow through and have the reader not get bored with what you're writing. All of this is really confusing, and if I don't explain it well enough, Google it. Having different people give different opinions on one subject is a great way to come up with the mist effective way of doing anything.
A lot of people find it hard to write a really good story in a small amount of words. I don't have that problem. I once wrote a story that had six sentences and make people cry. Let me tell you something, it's all about the amount of detail you put into the story. With a regular sized novel, you can span out the detail within chapters to keep the readers, you know, reading; but you can't do that with short stories. The readers need the information and detail near the beginning so they kind of understand what has happened in a short bit of time.
If there's one thing I should say about writing short stories is, just let the story write itself. Don't plain anything, don't outline, just let it flow. It's how a good story is supposed to be written. Don't think, just write, you can get the rough edges out later.
The end is the end is the end is the end is the end is the end is the end. Hope you guys enjoyed my tip on how to get your mind flowing for writing!
Gay characters have showed up many times in my writings, they happen because they seem to fit the role better than anybody else would. These characters, I like to think, are exactly like any other characters I've written about; but most people think that it is hard to write about them if you are not one. That bugs me, but mostly because I am a pansexual and do not agree that they are different than straight people. But since a lot of people have been asking tips on writing them, I've decided I should whip out the ol' blog and make a long over due post.
Really, there is nothing very special about writing a gay character, it's exactly like writing any other character with any other sexuality. There are not very many books that have queer MAIN characters, except for my books, of course. If you are straight and are writing about a non-straight person and are stuck, just imagine yourself but in the opposite. If that makes any sense. Say you're writing a YA romance novel, and are helplessly lost because you don't know how they should feel. It's simple, imagine yourself as your character with whoever you have a major crush on and put those feelings into the story. Love is no different than love.
If you stuck on the 'personality' of the character, I would stay away from regular stereotypes. But there are moments when to dwell deep into them. Here are what the queer stereotypes are:
Extremely obviously gay (you know the ones who always show up with the girls and usually have high pitched voices and all that jazz. PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM THIS IF THIS DOES NOT FIT THE CHARACTER AND WHAT GOES ON WITH THE BOOK!!!)
Slightly feminine (the ones that can pass with hanging out with the girls but also hang out with the guys. The type that might hide it from people but eventually comes out in a subtle way. THIS IS A GREAT AREA TO WORK IN, IT HAS AN EXREME AMOUNT OF EMOTION THAT COMES WITH IT THOUGH.)
'Modern' gay (you know the ones that are really masculine and you can't tell that they are queer? Here's this stereotype. IF YOU ARE A GIRL AND DON'T UNDERSTAND MALES, I SUGGEST AVOIDING THIS AREA. THAT'S UP TO YOU THOUGHT)
Tomboy (the ones who hang out with the guys and fit with the guys and stuff. TRY TO AVOID THIS, IT IS USED QUIET A LOT AND MIGHT TAKE AWAY FROM THE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT BUT IS REALLY GREAT AS A PARTNER OR BEST FRIEND OR ANYTHING IN THAT AREA.)
Girly-girl (this ones not so popular in the writing department but is still a great character to work with. PLEASE USE THIS, IT IS GREAT TO USE.)
That's all of the STEREOTYPES that is the main word in there. This is the stuff that is commonly used and a lot of people judge queer people off of. I really disliked writing all of these down because it made me feel guilty for being able to name them. I'm sorry if I offended anyone.
Happy character making!
Here we go: What is the first thing that pops into your mind when you here the word 'Wolf'? A furious beast that eats children or a wittle cwuite fuzzy little guy with big ears and eyes? The animal 'wolf' is somewhere in between those two things. But a human 'wolf' is somebody who depends on the luck of others and looks down on the smaller and weaker 'animals'. You might know them as the common bully; most of them don't have teeth that bit and claws that scratch though. Bullies (or wolves) don't have that kind of power.
Like the animal wolf, bullies depend on the downfall of another to make them stronger and try to impress future 'mates' by intimidating a threat. It never works though, in the human kingdom anyways. They can be seen with their pack of puppies, laughing and snarling at 'weaker' beings. Of course, there is a way to write the perfect 'wolf'.
Step 1: Think of the meanest and least emotional person you know.
Step 2: Add a lot of anger and neglect.
Step 3: Add a charming smile to hide true intentions.
Step 4: Find the perfect prey.
I hopes this helps with people who are writing a story about bullying.
Happy hunting! (Not literally, though, just figure of speech.)
Now, if you read as much as I do, you know the ONE main weakness that all heroes have; love. Heroes always care too much about people to actually get the job done, they want to save other people that aren't important. They get distracted and overwhelmed. Although, there is always something that they need to save; like most knights need to save a princess trapped in a tower (that was sarcasm, girls can climb the eff down like a ninja!). That is what they need to save, and not some person who got in the way, they can save themselves or die trying.
Anyway, yes, heroes don't take the task at hand seriously enough to fix in fast enough. Here are some tips on how to get the job done but awesomely:
Step 1: Make a hero that doesn't have a love interest in one of its friends (it's for the best)
Step 2: Make them have an awesome sidekick and not a dorky-get-in-the-way kind.
Step 3: Don't make them stop what they're doing to save somebody else that is not the main goal.
Step 4: Have them be heartless, but make them have a touching reason for fighting.
Step 5: Don't make them have a pet, it's just going to die anyway (save the tears for a YA novel).
I hope you liked these tips!
Most people want the readers to hate the villains, but the villains are always my favorites; they rich and dark backstories that you never get from the heroes life. Then again, if the hero does have a dark past, the villain usually has one even more so. Having a likable villain is probably the best thing ever; or writing a book that has neither a good guy nor a bad guy. When writing a book about baddies, you must include the following:
1. A SUPER (get it?) amazing and chilling backstory.
2. Normal life (like a hero's).
3. A home that suits the villain's personality.
4. Villain friends. (Most of you are probably wondering what I mean by 'Villain friends'. Well, if heroes can have teams then I think villains can have squads too.)
Anyway, the villain must have a normal life. They can't always been trying to take over the world; that's exhausting; therefore, make them have job, a family, and a pet. It makes the story interesting. Also, don't forget that the villain is most likely depressed, a sociopath, and probably a crazy person.
Fear. The word just sends shivers down your spine by simply hearing it, right? This is my absolute favorite thing to write about; manly because you can do anything and everything with it. Fear can create, sadness, loneliness, anger, resentment, insanity; it's like a god of emotion itself. Writer must control the fear in their characters and stories, because fear is the wildest thing there is. Making a character scared can cause numbness and shyness in their persona. It can be the greatest power anybody can have and control. That is us, that one person; the creator, the writer, and the builder of the fear that our characters have.
To create fear, there must be a root source; and many fears can branch out from it. Falling into a pit of lava and falling into water might be caused by a fear of falling in general. Although, there are many of the basic fears that a lot of people have: The dark, spiders, heights, shame, embarrassment, clowns, and donkeys (Well... Maybe the donkey thing is just me). Anyway, there are also fears that come for no reason: Heights, the dark, people ect. Then there are fears that come from different things. THIS is what you must play with.
Having this can make your book amazing and slightly frightening itself (which is what you want). It brings the reader in and wants them to read more about it. Make sure to never give away the fear all at the beginning or all at once; that brings on a terrible plot.
We've talked about normal characters, and sad characters, and mellow characters; but what about the crazy characters? I have a talent of writing great insane characters (you would know if you read 'The Art of Death'). Being insane can come on many, many levels.
Level 1: Obsession with fire, blood, torture ect.
Level 2: Hearing voices/ seeing things.
Level 3: Burning things and/or harming people.
Level 4: Not being able to feel any emotional trauma after killing somebody.
Level 5: A emotionless serial killer that always escapes even with the highest amount of security guards there has ever been.
So, yes, many levels of insane characters. I like to play around with these in varying degrees of crazy with my characters. Remember something: Not a lot of people write books about bad guys who stay bad. Making a character go insane is a little tricky, but think about it this way. You are locked in a room that is very small and always quiet, what do you start to do? Talk to yourself and get so paranoid that you hear and see things.
The MAIN character is the MAIN (get it?) thing you need to focus on before writing a book. They must be realistic (unless a sociopath or a psychopath) and have to have a personality that the reader can somewhat relate to. What I do is write parts of myself into the main character, in my book 'Life As He Knows It' I based the character (Ben Snow) off of myself; meaning he has my thoughts and feelings. But if you're a little weird (like me) and want what people call a 'normal' character, I suggest that you take some time to stalk people. DO NOT be creepy while doing this.
If you want a strong female character, I suggest that you read books and watch movies with strong female characters in them (not 'Twilight'). Examples: 'The Hunger Games', 'Paper Towns', and 'The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys'. Strong female characters don't HAVE to be main characters in other things. Stay away from classic vampire/werewolf novels.
If you are seeking a more mellow MC, I suggest that you spend some time at the beach and look at the waves. Think about how nice and calm it feels to be there, and not about writing at all. The best way to write a novel is to not think about writing a novel, just so you know. Walk through a field of flowers and think about how good the ground feels against you bare feet. It's nice to get away from loud people for an hour or two, yes?
this is where i ramble; have fun