sorry for all the updates, but life is shitty

So... here's the low down. My mom is back in the hospital; she has an infection and because of her chemo her immune system is shit. She's majorly ill right now. I'm waiting until after the long weekend (Tuesday) to do anything for my inpatient stuff. I basically just go to the emerg at my hospital and go "yo, I'm having a mental health crisis and I can't be at home", and somebody will come to assess me. The lady I talked to on the helpline says that it's pretty hard to get into inpatient and that I might not qualify. But it's either me living in the hospital or I'm living in a box on the corner, because I can't be at home right now. Life is really shitty at the moment and it's getting harder every day to deal with. I had like 8 anxiety attacks yesterday. I'm seeing my mom later today (it's 5am), but I don't know if I will be able to handle it. I fucking hate hospitals. Isn't that ironic? I need to be in a hospital but every time I go in one I have a panic attack. Have a great weekend, my dudes; and to all my fellow Canadians, I hope your Canada Day is amazing.

​-Vision​